This is for you. The one who feels like they are carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. The one who is held down by feelings that it’s all your fault. The one who is scared to turn to God, because the world is showing you a “better” way to deal with the pain. The scars feel better than dealing with the feelings you are carrying deep inside. The feelings that you have carried on your shoulders for way too long. You’re the one who has seen what God can do, but are scared of the unknown. I have been there before. I know all about watching God move in others lives and being terrified of trusting Him. I remember being afraid of falling over and His power. I remember the day when He said to me I know what you have been through. I remember the day I realized that God was way more than I thought He was and the day He gave me what I never expected, His love despite my fear. I know the words that He spoke to me, and they are similar to what I believe He would want to say to you as well:
Dear Beautiful One,
I know what you have been through. I have seen it all, and been there through all of the pain, heart break, feelings of fearing you will never be loved, and I have seen the wounds from the scars that you have. The same scars that you feel are so deep that no love could ever heal… not even the depths of my love. But beautiful one, although your scars run deep, there are scars that run deeper that can heal your heart. They are the wounds of my son Jesus. My Son bared the weight of the world when He died on the cross. The pain that He endured was unbearable, just as yours feels. After His death He went to Sheol. But He was not abandoned there. He rose again from the dead. See, although His scars were still visible when He returned, they didn’t confine Him to death. He came back to life. I can give you life back, and life more abundantly that you have never know it. I know it all. I have been there through it all. I was there in the beginning and I will be there in the end. Come to me, rest in me, let the scars of my Son bring you back to new life. You don’t have to be afraid. The world is full of empty promises, but my arms are safe. What you are carrying is heavy, but my yolk is light. I love you, I have always loved you. My love runs deeper than any hurt that you have endured. Let me show you my way, the way that can lead to healing, and freedom. I know it can be scary, but my Word is true. Trust in me. Hope in me. Find new life in me. Let my love make you whole.
With All My Love,
God
Yet it was our weaknesses he carried;
it was our sorrows that weighed him down.
And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God,
a punishment for his own sins!
But he was pierced for our rebellion,
crushed for our sins.
He was beaten so we could be whole.
He was whipped so we could be healed.
Isaiah 53: 4-5
Jess,
Thank you so much for the beautiful post. It speaks on so many levels… At first I was thinking about forwarding to a dear friend who is living in just that place, and I will do that, however I also realized that it speaks to those of us who have, as faithfully as we humans can, have followed The Lord for a long time. I believe because we are human, and because we are sinners, we can still get caught up in the flesh and sometimes forget the immense, unparalleled, all encompassing, love of our Father. It is then that we must go back to that root, and simply ask to feel that love again in our lives. The asking is not based on us or our circumstances, but on his unfailing love for us. Thank you for touching my heart with your latest post as all of them do…
Thank you for sharing Margaux! Xo