What lead a grown man to sob uncontrollably in my arms, while saying over and over I want my mommy, I want my mommy? Forgiveness. I met him in Rwanda and walked him through forgiving his mother for leaving him and his siblings in the genocide for her own safety. Years he had held on to the pain, but he was in a place where he wanted to forgive her, and try to reconcile with her as well. Before we get there though...there is something else we need to address.
Which is harder, to say "your sins are forgiven?" or "get up and walk?" Can I take a moment and answer that? The forgiveness of sins part has definitely got to be harder. Like by a long shot. And I say this because I will tell people all day to have faith that to do what Jesus says, but for me forgiveness is not as easy as telling people to "just have faith" that what He says is true. Following Christ isn't easy my friends. And this is one of those acts of obedience that I can easily forget about, until I am confronted by the truth. And that is what happened Saturday morning, when someone called me out on it. The truth felt like a truck hit me. I was holding onto hurt from 20 years ago. 2 decades is a long time to hold unforgiveness, and carry it in your heart. But that is what happened, for more than half my life.
I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. 1 Samuel 1:27 God is faithful. He is good. He is love. Our adoption story is one filled with these truths. We are all adopted into God’s kingdom. The Gospel is filled with this beautiful truth and message of … Continue reading Waiting Expectantly
Over the years, I have come across many people that I will never forget. I remember their laughs, and their cries. I remember how I felt when I was with them. Over the past few months I have written notes to them. They will never see these notes, but maybe they will encourage you if … Continue reading To The Ones I Will Never Forget
This past week has been a whirl wind. I was preparing for a work trip not only in the office, but also at home. It was a week of transitioning to Mike putting Olivia down for sleep, as I usually do it, Charlie getting diagnosed early last week with a "little cold" , and pretty … Continue reading I. Call. Victory.