Mom confession: Although I try so hard to keep Charlie safe, there are times that I am just not there. I turn my back for a quick second or maybe I am watching, and something happens and he gets hurt. And then I see his face and he has that open mouth of silence that means that there is a cry coming and the longer he stays with his open mouth with no sound coming out the louder the cry will be. He probably doesn’t know much except that he is hurt. He quickly runs to me for comfort until he feels better because he knows my arms are safe.
I can’t count the number of times where I feel lost and so hurt emotionally. I don’t know which way is up or which way is down I just know that I am hurt. Feeling alone… scared of what the next day will bring… unsure of the future… confused… the times when you are so immovable that you feel like you can’t get out of bed to face the day… the list of emotions can go on and I’m sure that you can add a few emotions to my list. It’s these times where I hear God’s gentle whisper saying “come to me and I will give you comfort.” Comfort and rest…that sounds good. Isaiah 66:13 says “As a mother comforts her child, so I will comfort you”. As a mom, I know the deep love that I have for Charlie, and when he is hurt, I want to snuggle and comfort him until his pain goes away. Isaiah compares our love for our children to God’s love for us. Wow. It is almost unreal to fathom that that is how God feels about us and that we don’t have to be alone in our hurt and pain. He wants to comfort us, He wants to hold us until the pain goes away. Each time I run to the arms of my loving heavenly Father I always feel a peace that passes all understanding and an unearthly comfort. I feel safe and that I can get up and face the day (even as scary as it may be).
I need to learn more from Charlie….like he knows where to run where he is hurt… I never want to forget where I can run to when I need comfort and rest. Remember that we have a loving Father who is waiting with very large open arms for us to run to when we are hurting… His love is unfailing and perfect.
photo credit: Juan Galafa
